I've decided that I don't truly know what to do anymore. Too much bullshit, lack of enjoyment from everything. I live my life on a daily basis where every day feels like the last. Even if I try something new.

I've decided to build a video game with my cousin. So far we have quite a good amount of ideas to include within the game - but no true; in depth storyline yet. Something I feel we should make before going any further into the project. (Which I will be coding, as I learn C++ )

I'm still starting up a business in which I pick up dog shit. I used to have 3 customers, make $45 a week, and work less then 20 minutes a week. Now I have 1 customer, make $15 a week, and work less then 5 minutes a week. If I had more money (read: If I knew how to save money) I'd buy some business cards (which I already have the design for) and some fliers (design ready as well) and start passing them out around my community. I really do need more customers. It's vital that I get more. Why? I need my drivers liscence.

There's someone very special to me whom I never know when I get to see next. This drives me insane and literally kills me inside every day. She means everything to me but I'm unable to save $250 to get my liscence? There is something wrong with that. I can save my money, but not when I barely have enough to make it so I can have a treat now and then. I like to be able to take the bus instead of walk ($3 for a day pass, I usually buy 1-2 a week), a Sobe or Monster ($2 or $3~ respectfully) once a week, and that right there leaves me with $7-$10, one fast food trip ($4~) and I'm left with $3-6.

The only time I have more then $20 is when I win a gaming tournament. Then I have about $60-$70 for a month or so before it's gone. I need more customers... a better income so I'm able to set more aside.

If I can get 3 more customers (total of 4) that will be $60 a week, and $240 a month. I'd be able to get my liscence within a month.... just 3 customers will make that difference. BUT I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO GET THEM.

Play guitar, go on SWF (Smashboards.com), check myspace/youtube/dA, get off. Do nothing, get bored. Repeat.

I lead a sad excuse for a life, and I'm horrible with actually going for my goals.

Cutting this blog short, going to go skate with a sunburn and a soar throat....