I've been losing a lot of people today, circle is finally restarting.

My best friend (and one of my like... 2 friends in HB) is moving to Hawaii this August because the government epicly fails at fixing the economy and his Dad lost his job, and his Mom couldn't make the rent - they got behind in payments and now their losing their house. They are moving to his aunts place in Hawaii. This is devastating news to me because he is the -only- person I ever really hang out with out of school, or go to his house.

I am horrible at making new friends - all of the friends I've made out here were introduced to me by my sister Azurae introducing me to Freddy who introduced me to "the group" he hung with, which is how I met Shaun. If it weren't for my sister, I'd be in the same position I will be in soon.

My only friend (whom I rarely ever hang out with after school ) is Faustine; so at least I'm not friendless.

So now that I lost the little bit of "a life" I had left (not being home all day) I'll be spending much more time on my music.

My cousin was nice enough to lend me his bass, so now I have 3 guitars, a bass guitar, a keyboard, and a flute. I'm learning the keyboard/piano slowly but surely - while my focus being on the guitar. I just got the bass today, and I'll be tabbing a simple "play the root note" bassline for all my songs - just to give them some extra depth. It will also let me play the basslines for any songs I learn on guitar - and I can record them separately and combine them.


I have also recently become more into Anarchist ideas... (see: [link] )

I got my wii back - which means I can start playing competitively again. I will be contacting a public place (Murdy Park) about seeing if I can schedule a Brawl tournament in their lobby. (May need to charge venue fee's) - so long as nothing is ruined (The Brawl community is generally mature enough to not devastate places) so I may be co-hosting this with my new friend Recoil. (I know only him by his online name)


I've also been growing further away from because I overthink everything and managed to hurt myself yet again. I do seem to be pretty damned good at that.


I recently went through my previous 56 contacts on my phone and deleted all those I never text/call. This left me with 7 contacts. 1 of which is myself to make calling my Voicemail easier....

So that leaves 6 people.... 4 of which are family.....

Which leaves 2 people that aren't family that I talk to. That's just pathetic.

I've also become really good at putting myself down and leading closer to my eventual suicide which I feel will happen before I graduate. Let's hope I last that long so we can all keep lulzing at my pathetic life.

~ SuSa - Shut Up, Suicide Already